Today was a rather long day. I woke up in the morning at 10 to waste time on the internet as usual. But today I also had an outing at One Utama to attend. As I recall, the first thing I did when I arrived at OU was to look for Maxis reload for Lecus. However, after wondering for about 10 minutes, I rang Lecus asking him where to buy the reload as I had no clue. So instead I ended up waiting for him to arrive to only then get his reload after. After that, we waited near McDonalds with plans of eating there. However, since McD was full we eventually ended up eating at KFC which was just next door. Having finished our lunch, we rushed to the cinema as we were almost late for the movie. Quon Shen who was stuck in traffic, ended up missing about 5 minutes of the movie. While watching the movie, we had some Singaporean popcorn Jeremy bought and sneaked in the cinema. Honestly, I find regular popcorn much better as it had a really strong flavour and was very heaty and we were without drinks! After the movie, we searched for a place to grab lunch for Quon Shen. During that time, I ran off with Lecus to buy some meds for Brandon as he had a headache. Blah blah blah after coming back, for the first time I went to a batting cage! Sadly I barely made any hits and it's utmost depressing that I even lost to Lecus. We then moved to the bowling alley where Pn. Monica and Brian both being members of the library own the game. This brings to the conclusion that people of the library are good in bowling! After bowling session, Pn. Monica and Quon Shen left the party while the rest of us moved to the arcade. In the arcade, we practically burned money and had fun doing so. Before long, Brandon and Jeremy left the party too and soon after the entire party was disbanded. As for the weekdays, there were a lot of prom proposals going on in school. I who already have someone I plan to ask, have no idea weather or not should I go for it. Reason being that I've already asked her out before but was ask to be given time for her to think about it. Now that was since valentines this year and to my displeasure, I find myself too much of a coward to ask her again. Simply because it was my first time and I already felt failure in it as we grew apart in person to the point we find it really hard to even talk in person. Strangely enough, I still manage to talk to her via the internet. Being the idiot I am, I even asked for opinions online. I got a response saying that I've got nothing left to loose, so just go for it! That did bring some spark in me to make a move but I again over analyzed and regret to find myself back to square one. Reason being, I probably talk to her through the internet more than I ever talk to anyone in person or internet. I even talk to her more than I even talk to my own family members now. So, if my confession led us to be unable to speak to each other in person, what more would a prom proposal do. I'd be left in my own corner of despair if I ever were to fail again. All the prom proposals in school have actually stressed me out as I'm even getting pimples all over which is a sign of stress! To be honest, I find myself very jealous to see others being able to leisurely talk to her while I could only stand at a corner to watch as no words comes to mind even when I'm just next to her. I've never really been good at starting conversations but it pains me more to see her no longer calling for my help like she used to before I asked her out. We've simply grown further and further away day by day and I find myself pathetic for not being able to do anything about it. However, this prom proposal idea could be my one chance to change this. It could either bring me the pleasures of heaven of maybe the pains of hell. Gambling? I've never been good at gambling either, lady luck never really liked me. With that I thank you from the deepest part of whats left of my icy cold heart for reading this long and boring dilemma of mine. To prevent people from only getting interested in reading this post because of my ending, I've purposely made the starting a boring part of my life events while extending the ending with another boring story. That also explains why this post is going to be a very lone post and worst of all in a single paragraph. With the explanations done, I shall now start my second story. To make it as boring as possible, I'll talk about my family again as humans would find repetitions very boring. Since the last event on Thursday 2 weeks ago, I've barely had any conversation with my family members. My sister whom I normally get along with is now trying to talk to me, but I still refuse to give her a proper response. As the saying goes, a friend in need is a friend indeed. Meaning that those who are there for you when you are in need of help, are indeed true friends that we should keep. Applying this concept to her, she is definitely not 'a friend in need', hence I choose to neglect her title as my sister itself. As I mentioned last week, we strictly runs by every man for himself, so I find conversing with them of no use and hence I refuse to. As for my parents who can't teach me from wrong to right, I'll just presume what I do is 'not wrong' and leave things as it is.
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