Over thinking #27.5

I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking. I'm over thinking and it's killing me inside! A friend told me to talk about my problems even if it's a tree I'm talking to... I guess this blog should work just as well. So... I'm over thinking about everything and I can't control it. I over think about things I don't want to and it's building up this rage in me which gives me the urge to destroy everything I see or hear for no specific reasons. I'm over thinking because I fail to trust the ones closest to me which also frustrates me for not being able to trust them. I over think about your absence and what you're doing as I fail to trust you, my closest friend? I'm over thinking again as I even type this out as I begin to question, are you even what I can call my closest friend. I'm over thinking and I'm dying for a solution for this, I'd even hold on to a spider thread for my release. I over think everything which made me regret a lot of things I wish I had done. I over think my past decisions which also leads me to regret what I had done. I'm over thinking and I feel like I'm about to explode! My jealousy makes me think too much, my low self esteem makes me think too much, my hatred makes me think too much. I lack trust in everything around me and I think to much. I wish I could just stop thinking or maybe just fall into an eternal slumber where I've got nothing to think about anymore.